today is the 14th, so it means 2 more days its my 16th birthday. ohmygod.. time passes so fast, i'm going to be 16. but well enough, i know i don't look like 16, cause of my height. haha, height has always been an issue to me, and it sucks, you guys will never understand. :'( i have grown, i know not my height, but as in mentally. i'm sure i have. i'm sure it has grow better and also bad. i mean, in your eyes maybe you have grown to be better, but in other peoples' eyes, you might have grown worst.

so ya.. i wanna thanks my family for everything , for being there, for knowing that i suck. but still, i love you guys, including my parents, brother, aunt, uncle, cousins. i know i'm rebellious.. and 1 worst thing i have done is for not studying, and causing me to retain. up till now.. i'm still guilty. i hated myself, i still remember i wanted to commit suicide.. but lucky i didn't. well, thanks my mum giving birth to me.. though she didn't want to @ first. but , lucky i'm a girl. thats why, she decided to. though sometimes she pms, whatever. but she always entertain me, but well more of irritate. hahaha. i still remember when she caned me last time, in the middle of the night , she will wake up and apply ointment for me. when i'm sick, she will be damn worried. she will check on me often, wrap the ice in a towel and ya..blah blah blah. & i'm sorry to disappoint her, for retaining. i'm sorry mum. :( but, i'll just treat it as a lesson learnt and do better okay? i can't promise you.. but i'll try my best! & thanks dad for getting everything i want, you treated me like a princess @ home. you never ever scolded me or whatever. and my brother.. though he sucks @ times, but well, i still love him. :) thanks for helping me in everything and also sorry for being rude!

well, friends now.. i do not have a lot of friends. but what for have so much friends, cause most of them might be untrue. and well, on the process of growing up, i have lose and also gain friends. but, friends that are not my friends now, well.. theres always a reason why they can't make it in to the future. but i know, the problem is between us. we both have fault in it, i must admit. but still.. thanks for being there once, bringing joy and sadness to my life. i cherish our friendship and till now, i think i still do though we are not friends anymore. and , those who are still friends with me now, thanks for being with me all the way. i really appreciate it. you all have to withstand my rubbishness, childishness, craps. we might have quarrels, or whatever, it may have weaken our friendship, it may also have let our frienship stronger. but deep down, you know i love you guys. :) and for my sec4 friends, i know we might not be as close as before, but i really hope we won't drift. i'm really sad that i can't take o's with you guys, can't celebrate after that o's everything. but still, you guys have to do well even without me! :p

though.. my sec4 friends aren't able to celebrate my birthday with me when i wish they could, cause its like their last year here.. but never mind its not their fault cause they are going overseas. i'm not having any big party or whatever, even though my mum suggested me having one. but i think i'll just celebrate it simply. :) i will only want to have a big party, maybe when i'm 18 or 21? so.. it will be a unforgettable one. :) but lucky, i have Faye and Yugene with me this year. :) thanks so much. i love you guys too. :) especially Faye.

kay, what a long post.. :o i'll blog again soon, but in another blog when i'm done with it. cause i'm changing blog link! :) will let you guys know the new blog link when i'm done with the blog. so.. i guess this will be my last proper post @ myemolove.bs . i'm gonna miss it though, cause i have this blog for 3years already. so long right? i will not be deleting this blog, as to keep for memories. haha, i do read it sometimes, when i'm bored. alright, ciao! this will be my last and proper sentimental post for this blog.